angry at myself :S

yesterday has been a great day.
went to accompany boyfren and his family do their xmas shopping.
boyfren bought many new clothes.
but i think he still didnt have enough of shopping.
dinner at stonegrill was yummielicious.
was sososo full..

wasn't in a fabulous mood yesterday lorhs.
I was angry at myself at first.
then I came home to think about why I was feeling so.
I spend hours thinking lorh,
while I was reading my favourite novel,
while msging Jer's Godsister.
hmmmmmmmm.. it was only until I fully concentrate on thinking.
then I broke down.
I finally knew and understand why I was in a bad mood.
I don't usually like to let things affect me that much.
but ysd, I just cldn't shake the bad feeling.
I finally understand myself.

I was feeling so bad,
cause I subconsciously rmbed the hard work I went through,
in order to 'achieve' something.
but yet, that something was given away, just like that.
hais.. it wasn't mere hard work that i had to go through lorh.
it was torturous, most embarrassing, painful and I lost my favourite one n only necklace on that day.
but I guess, the person didn't understand.